Tuesday, December 20, 2011
I get depressed at this time of the year. Holiday.bah hum bug. I lied today and took a day off. I don't like doing that but it happens. I dont take off when Im sick with a cold or if Im in pain(unless its severe)but yes I do take a day off sometimes when I get this funk. To me this is my illness,my sickness....had it for years. Today i will do something to make me feel a little better. I will take care of my self. Writing here helps. I will keep busy...crochet. Take a walk. Play with my pets. Call friends. It doesn't last long, a few days sometimes a week. Sort of like a migraine. I remember when I 1st starting getting depress but didn't realize it had a name. I was about 15 to young to know what it was but old enough to know something was wrong. I got help and learned to manage it without meds. So I don't get get suicidal thoughts but its a low grade depression? Has nothing and everything to do about living in a van. Maybe living in it is the wrong word,just hanging out in there is better. Who knows maybe by moving in the van and staying where I want to will have a good impact on this depression.