Michelle's Big Dreams: life

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Tuesday, February 5, 2013

Letting go

Its still dark as I write this. I have a yearning to write this morning but not sure what. There is not a lot to share as my mind is yet not connected to the day a head. No coffee yet. Did feed the outside cat. As I go through my Labels to put in this blog one does stand out. "Letting go" I say that because of all the pushing I've put myself in the last few days. I also noticed my depression is popping up. Its slight which what makes it so hard to see. Its there. I see the signs now coming. I get anxious about little things. I tend to stare into space as my mind wanders from any task ahead and yes I do TOO much. And its OK. I know that this to shall pass. Treating myself today to quiet today. Just letting it go a bit that I need to do everything at this moment. Call a few friends to see how there doing,read a book..... at least some of it. Chill out.

I am working on the van. I removed the middle seats and now I may remove the back seat. At one point I was going to keep it. Now its impracticable. It doesn't work. I hear its uncomfortable and well its also the matter of storage. A regular bed gives me a lot more storage and ROOM. Yes more room,I think another 2 feet going around? Yes! I love what they did with the crates on the picture here. Of course I would put it so I can put things in it. Whats the purpose of using crates if you can't use it for storage?

Next week I'll load some pictures of what's coming along with it.
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Monday, December 17, 2012

So many lost dreams.....and a bucket list

Some where in heaven a beautiful bunch of angels arrived a few days ago. Blondes and dark hair haired cute little munchkins. They are suppose to be there I hear but somewhere far down below some families are mourning them. And each one of them never got to fulfill their dreams. Never to kiss on a first date. Never to have kids. Never to dream about being the president or the next lady gaga. And we live on. I have no family to speak of but this hurt me so bad as well as millions of others. It hurts because we just feel. We are humans and we feel compassion for others. So in our hurts we love our kids more our pets more our friends more. And we make a bucket list because we realize we have such SHORT lives here.

Stupid little things get in my way...like fear. LOL OK maybe not so little. One of the things on my bucket list is to visit the animal charities I love and I have lots so will not visit all but one is in Tennessee and I really would love to see them. Arizona to see the slabs and join the other van dwellers. Just a couple of things. My list is a little longer. Like putting a stone on my mom's and dad's grave spots. We were always very poor and they landed in potters field. Sad ...with no stone.
I am looking now as my monies for the van has increased. YAH!!!! Working 6 days a week to get to this point ...not SO Yah! Life is OK right now. I have no complaints...OK I lied maybe a few but heck we all have that don't we. *wink*

Thanks for stopping by..Ya all have a wonderful week!! *Big Smile here*

Sunday, February 19, 2012

Computer is down!!!

I try to post a blog at least once a week. But my computer is ill after only 4 months! If you have Dell I have to tell you ,you are in great hands. They have such good customer service. I do not have to pay a penny and they figured what the problem was on the telephone. Ok bad part be prepared to hold the phone to your ear for at least 2 hours at a time. Yeah ...thank god for speaker phones! Its nice to see I now have 24 followers. Thank you for joining my bumpy ride here. Hopefully I will have my laptop back in about 10 days and not have to hang at the library. Don't get me wrong I do love the library ,just like to kick back on the couch better with the laptop. On the van side side I am getting closer to getting one. I figure by next month I will be on the hunt for my new home. Im already starting the bed frame for it. Since it will fit in any van I can go ahead and draw it out and starting drilling and sawing away. Its going to be a reverse futon that will be about 47" x 66 inches. I can't wait to get started on it and I will be taking pictures along the way. So thats it for now...have a GREAT week everyone!